A MOVIE SCRIPT ENDING

I have having some serious doubts about myself today. I was thinking to my self, “Do you really think you can pull off half the shit you say?” I was referring to a lot of aspects about my self but mostly about using a camera. I am supposed to be shooting a short film in May and I was having some doubts about if I can pull it off. I felt like I couldn’t come close to filming it in the quality that it deserves. The simple corporate videos I have been doing looked like shit to me, and those are the easiest things to film and edit. I don’t want to be the reason this short didn’t make it anywhere. I felt like the quality of work I do was the same as every other anonymous, big headed kid who wants to make movies. I shrunk down to the size of an ant. I felt like i knew nothing and like giving up.

Then I realized I was just in a horrible mood. Even cardboard boxes were pissing me off and were making me want to quit. After getting home, eating and sitting for a while I started to feel better. I know I have a lot to learn and a lot to experience. I have a few months to get where I need to be. I need to surround my self with people who can push me creatively and I need to learn to take criticism better, since I feel like every time someone says something I can improve on or something they don’t like I take it as a personal attack. I need to whip my self back into shape.

It doesn’t help that I’m trying to drop some bad habits of mine.